what ARE you doing?
I've not posted anything new for a while here, because I've been having a bit of a wobble. It's the sort of wobble which has, in the past, resulted in a suddenly completely deleted blog.
In fairness, no one would notice much anyway.
But, I would notice the lack of a blog. Then I'd end up missing doing it, and in a few weeks time I'd start a new one, and the familiar cycle would start all over again.
Blog happily for a bit. Have a bad mental morning and delete a few posts I'm suddenly embarrassed about posting for some reason. Perhaps change blog and/or emphasis of the blog. Start fresh with new motivation. Have a bad mental morning. Delete a few posts I'm suddenly embarrassed about posting for some reason. Run out of posting motivation. Get confused about what I'm doing with my blog. Why do I bother with blogging at all? Delete the blog entirely.
Why does this keep happening?
And, why do I feel the need for a blog to be for one particular style of blog, when I'm quite happy mixing up the style of posts on my fediverse Mastodon account?
I don't know. But, now I have thought of it, that is a particularly interesting point. I do post obvious (and not so obvious) nonsense, make jokes and puns, and post honest real-life updates, and share some of my photography, all on the single Fediverse scribblanitea account.
I mix it all up, and it's not a problem to me or readers. Why can't I do that on a blog?
Why do I feel my blogs need to be focused either on the humour OR the real life, OR photography, as a separate emphasis, on separate blogs, and NOT all mixed up?
I don't know. And I haven't actually tried doing it before either. Perhaps I have a mental image about people expecting a blog to be 'about' a particular something or be a specific style. I certainly worry that, unless flagged in advance in some way, that some readers won't get the tone of the more subtle and sardonic posts.
But I don't want to have a 'not really, this is meant to be a joke' tag on those posts. I'd want the writing to do that. I hate getting emails from people taking issue or questioning my take on things (or, as recently, publishing a serious reply to one of my not entirely serious posts on their own blogs) when I know it was just meant to be a laugh and it's passed them by.
That's more my fault, I suppose.
I know from reading the Bear blog Discover Latest posts feed that this isn't true for everyone, but my mind wants to compartmentalise my own blogging output. But only for blogs, and not for the social networking. Odd.
Coincidentally, this morning I read Robert Birming's latest post "Reasons not to quit blogging"
He writes:
In hindsight, I can see and understand that I’ve both messed up and quit blogging for the wrong reasons. It’s never really been about what I’ve told myself. In the end, it has been a false notion that by “fixing” my blog one way or another, that would be the fix I needed to get my inner shit together.
He's right. I need to get my shit together in a different way. Deleting the blog isn't what's needed.
Stand by.
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